I've stopped the blade from hitting my skin.
I've stopped the pain from happening again.
It kept me calm, away from the stress,
Now it makes my arm look like a complete mess.
It's been 5 months since I last carved.
I'm tired of this, tired of being scared.
6 long years of pain and suffer,
In all it makes me tougher.
But still 5 months is the longest I've gotten.
The thought of doing it makes me feel rotten.
I'll never regret it, never regret the jam.
Only because it made me who I am.