5 Months

5 months no cutting...
I've stopped the blade from hitting my skin.
I've stopped the pain from happening again.
It kept me calm, away from the stress,
Now it makes my arm look like a complete mess.

It's been 5 months since I last carved.
I'm tired of this, tired of being scared.
6 long years of pain and suffer,
In all it makes me tougher.

But still 5 months is the longest I've gotten.
The thought of doing it makes me feel rotten.
I'll never regret it, never regret the jam.
Only because it made me who I am.
Published: 6/27/2011
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