Being Beautiful - Chapter Eighteen

Briana is a 16-year-old girl who hosts a web show. She doesn't know her life without it and she just gives great advice on how to love yourself and no one else.
Chapter 18: Departure

The morning of our departure was a dreary rainy morning. I got up and walked toward my window. Raindrops rolled off here and there. I sighed and balled my hair into a ponytail before I walked in the bathroom to get ready. As I was brushing my teeth, I thought back to a couple of days ago at Kaleb's words. He was serious. I mean I guess that I knew that he liked me, I just didn't want to make it foreal, that it was true. I sighed and turned on the water for the shower and stepped in. Why was this such a big deal for me? Oh yeah, I knew why: 'cause I hadn't really liked anyone since the James epidemic. Or, maybe I was over thinking the whole thing... Nahh.

Once I got done showering, I picked my suitcase out of my closet and started filling it with clothes. I sat in front of my dresser and just placed random clothing in there. I looked over to my left and although the rain droplets were coming down hard, I could see Kaleb standing there at his dresser searching through clothes. I looked back down and away from him because my stomach started tingling.

While I was thinking in my own zone, there was a knock on my door. "Come in." The door opened and Ian walked in looking sleepy. He collapsed on my bed and sighed loud and hard. "Morning to you too."

"I woke up at four-thirty this morning and I showered for like an hour and you're barely packing," he said. "Oh the freaking irony."

I laughed. "Hey," I said zipping up my bag. "I'm done packing." I stood up and walked into the bathroom to get my girl necessities. "Was anyone downstairs when you came?"

"Yeah, Liam opened the door for me. He, Lucas and Eric already left for the airport. Liz was eating breakfast and said that she was going to come with us." He stood up and paced.

"What time is it?" I asked as I came out of the bathroom.

"6:45. We might need to get going." I nodded and picked up my bag. "Have you talked to Kaleb?"

I bit my lip and looked at him. It was the fact that he brought Kaleb up which made me remember that we both weren't on talking terms and that I'd just pissed him off the day before that made me realize I was the bad person in the situation.

I clenched my jaw and walked out of my bedroom door. "No. We haven't talked. We're just on different pages right now."

"Something that you wanna talk about?" Ian asked as he took my bag from me and walked down the stairs right alongside me.

"We'll have time enough to talk about it on the plane."


When we got to the airport, it was heaven on earth because we got to sit in first class and we were the only ten people sitting in first class. Ariel and Kurt were giving us directions since we all still were minors.

"And I'm serious you guys," Ariel said. "No drinking or anything if Kurt and I fall asleep. No touchy, touchy feely, feely or whatever you teenagers do." I couldn't help but smile. "Do you understand."

We all nodded in agreement as we took our seats. To my astonishment, Ian took a seat beside Eric, Liz took a seat beside Alexander, Lucas of course sat beside Liam and that left me with one spot: to sit beside Kaleb. I sighed and trudged to the seat.

Once he looked up and saw me approaching, he sighed long and hard so that almost everyone on the plane could hear it. I sat down with my arms crossed. He was too busy "reading" to even acknowledge my presence. I rolled my eyes, grabbed my laptop out of my bag and signed onto my website.

Some people were posting about how excited that they were to see me on TV finally and that they were going to tune in to the Web-Lee Awards. I raised an eyebrow. I didn't even know that it was going to be on a television channel. I mean I thought that they'd be streaming it like online or something.

Just when I was about to scroll down some more, I felt my phone vibrate. I reached over and picked it out of my bag. I scrolled through the messages and noticed that it was from Ian.

Are you and Kaleb on talking terms yet?

I sighed and looked up and found Ian staring at me. I shook my head and he pointed towards Kaleb. I guess he wanted me to talk to him. I sighed and looked over at Kaleb, but he was just avoiding me all over again with his eyes.

I looked back at my phone, brought his number up and texted him: Well if we're going to be sitting by each other than we should at least say something to one another. I hit send and then watched him out the corner of my eye.

His phone vibrated, he picked it up and then stared at the text. For a brief second, I saw a smile cross over his lips and then it went away just as soon as I thought I saw it. He typed back on his phone and then he put it away.

My phone vibrated and then I looked back down at it. What do you want me to say to you that I haven't already said to you Briana? I bit my lip, looked up at Kaleb briefly and then back at my phone.

Something. I don't want us to not talk. I feel bad for everything that happened. Why can't we just get past this stage in our relationship.

I hit send and two minutes later he responded with this: Do you really feel bad or do you just say that so that you can feel better if we start talking again? I can't get past this stage with you. I'm sorry.

I looked over at him and he was still reading. I scooched closer to him. "I should be the one saying sorry," I whispered.

He looked over at me. "For what?" He asked sarcastically. I raised an eyebrow at him and he just smiled. "It's fine. Girls don't know what they feel."

"I do know what I feel. You're just..." I raised an eyebrow. "I don't know."

"Briana, if you knew what you felt," he whispered back. "Then you wouldn't have let me kissed you as many times as I did and you wouldn't be apologizing for this all." He shrugged. "You like me, but you're in denial." I opened my mouth to argue, but he shook his head. "I don't wanna argue with you about this. It's way too early in the morning." I clenched my jaw and nodded.


Sorry guise that it's so short. I'm going to this summer internship and I have to wake up so early and do so much homework. I know that this isn't an excuse and I should post regularly, but I get so tired. Can you all forgive me?


Don't forget to read 'Carpe Noctem' and 'Amazing Grace'!


Comment Replies:

Fangirl - But I think that Kaleb is cute and I don't wanna change the pictures because I like the pictures that I picked. Sorry if you don't.
BbLover - Thank you! I appreciate you taking the time to read it.
Purple - Batman? Lol.
Jenn16 - Is Being Beautiful like really that addictive? Lol. I just wanna know. I don't write as often as I used to, but I should. Thank you. I love you guys.
Suja V - Lol. It did make me double happy. Lol. This story is just filled with drama, so of course the awards is gonna be like drama filled times 1000000. It would be a bummer if she didn't win huh. That'd just be like really bad. I'll post ASAP for you guise.
Rhyia - Ohh! Sorry about your computer being so stupid! Lol. I know! I mean I love how Obama was like, "Gay people deserve the right to be married" I mean 'cause they do. They're people just like we are. Oh. I love you too. I love commenting back to you guys. It's like we're all friends, but we just live so far away from one another. I'm nice. I think that I am. I shall tell you guys what happened to Briana when she was 12, but you'll have to read the next chapter. Thank you.
Maureen - Oh c'mon. You might be just as creative as I am. You should write a chapter of your own story and then email me and I'll critique you some so that you can post stories on here too. I can't wait for you guys to see the awards part too! My brother is just annoying. You can like have him if you want, lol. I have like two guy friends that I can count on right now. They're just hilariously funny. If you met them then you'd love them too. And like me and both of their girlfriends are like cool so it's not really awkward. I'm glad when you see my comments you smile. Omg. That made my day.
Scenegurl - Sorry I'm so late. I hope you did well on your exams! You have to read and find out. Briana is just everywhere. She doesn't really know what she wants.
Published: 6/15/2012
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