Chapter 17: Desperate Times Call For...
Ian laid in my bed beside me and played with my hair. I was sitting on my laptop getting ready for the next web show. I checked my email and smiled when I saw that one of them was from Dell. I clicked on it first.
Omg. You just called me gorgeous. Am I really? And I saw the web show of you and Ian. It almost made me cry because people out in the real world all thought that you were going to end up together and when you said that nothing happened, I almost cried out of relief because I didn't want your friendship to turn into anything more because what if your relationship had never worked out and you both stopped talking? I mean, I don't want that to happen. I just... No. You both deserve just to be best friends so that your friendship will always last. The people that post nasty things about you are just dark on the inside. If they were a real fan of you then they'd be concerned about things that are going wrong with you and not just about when you're gonna web show next. I know you're all excited that I got you in at the Web-Lee's, but can Ian kiss me instead of you though? I mean I'd love for you to kiss me, but that'd be totally weird. And no problem! If anyone was gonna sign you up it had to be me. I just saw an ad for it online and then I was like, "Briana would like this" and so I signed you up. And my mother said that she'd ship me there with my cousin and we can go with you. You don't have to pay for me, but thank you for the offer. I just used my dad's credit card. Well, I guess I'll see you then lovely.
- Love Dell.
I smiled at the part about our mine and Ian's friendship. Dell completely understood everything about me and she barely knew me. It was like really amazing. She knew that what I had with Ian was sacred and she was probably the only one - other than Liz - who would naturally understand what I was going through.
You're very gorgeous Dell and I wouldn't just say it just to say it. Don't cry. Omg. I didn't think that people would get very emotional over the stuff that we say. And by the way, I love how you get me. It's weird cause that thought goes through my head everyday. Um, I don't want things between Ian and I to get any different because he's my best friend and he'll be my best friend until the day that I die and I don't want us getting into a relationship to change any of that. Thanks for actually e-mailing me and I hope once we see each other we become even more closer than just e-mailing. LOL. Yes. Ian can kiss you cause it'd be very weird if I did so. I'm also very grateful that you signed me up cause I didn't think that I'd ever have the guts to do so myself. I love that you did that for me. I can honestly see where your heart is. Aww, your mom beat me to the point of paying for everything. Since you're gonna be there, do you know what hotel that you're staying in? If you'd figure it out, just e-mail so I can know. We might actually be in the same hotel!
- Love Brianaaanananana
"Those are some long messages," Ian said as he placed my hair into one long braid that was going down the side of my face. "From Dell?"
I nodded. "She's supposed to be coming to the Web-Lee awards with us. Well not with us, but y'know she'll be there."
"That's good," Ian said. "I'd like to meet her. She seems like a nice girl." He looked at the e-mail before I pressed send. "So I'm supposed to kiss her?"
I chuckled. "We were being sarcastic."
"I wouldn't mind," he said holding up my wrist to take off my hair wrappy. "She seems cute." He started to tighten the hair wrappy on the end of my braid.
"Have I not shown you a picture of her yet?" He looked at me and raised an eyebrow. I pulled up the older e-mail that Dell had sent me and I showed him the picture.
"Oh. She's really beautiful." He looked away from the screen and started to patten my hair down. "I wouldn't mind kissing her if I had to."
I rolled my eyes and signed onto my web show. "Ian." He looked up at me and stopped patting my hair.
"Who were you talking to earlier?" He raised an eyebrow at me as if he didn't know what I was talking about. "It was when you and Liz and Alexander were in here."
"Oh." He looked away from me. "Just some girl." He grabbed the laptop from me and started going through comments from the last video.
"Just some girl?" He didn't respond. "Do you like this girl?"
"It's nothing like that Briana. She was just a friend."
"Ian I'm just a friend."
"No, you're not. Don't compare yourself like that." He sighed and looked down. "She was just this girl. Remember I told you that this girl asked me out on the day of the football game? Before we went to go and get Eric."
I looked up in thought and then looked back at Ian and nodded. "Yeah. What about her?"
"Well that's the girl I was talking to."
I nodded. "Oh."
He looked at me as I was playing with my nail. "Briana, I thought that we said that we aren't going to be jealous."
I looked up at me. "I didn't say that I was jealous, I just said 'Oh'." He looked at me and I smiled my winning smile.
"I still don't believe you." He pulled up the camera. "And that's just cause I know you so well."
"Hey guys," I said into the camera.
"Hola my amigos."
"Me amigos. Stupido," I said grabbing the laptop and made it face me. He leaned down beside me and put his head onto my shoulder. "So um, I've been mainly seeing questions about how excited I am about the whole Web-Lee awards and I just want to let you guys know that I'm very excited and so is Ian who will be accompanying me."
"I'm not the only one. There is just a shit load of people."
"Launguage!" I screamed. He covered his mouth really fast. "Anyway." I looked back at the screen. "I see that you all have sent me questions, so I'll answer one by one."
"I'll go first," Ian said as he looked at the first question that was on there. "This is from maganese31. It says 'If you were to be in a movie, what movie would it be'?" He looked over at me. "Hmm. I think that the movie that I'd be in would most likely be The Hunger Games."
I looked over at him, appalled. "Really?"
"Oh yeah. I'll just like do what Katniss did and sleep in a tree and then let everyone else kill themselves off."
"Okay, so what about food and stuff?"
"I'd eat bark."
I looked over at him and laughed. "Alright you guys. He'd eat bark."
I woke up the next morning to lan's face right on my chest. He was snoring loudly, of course, but I couldn't have woken up to a much happier sight. I looked to my right and the sun was barely up, so it had to have been about 10 in the morning. Eric should be here any minute. I looked back down at Ian and started playing with his hair until I heard him mumble and then he smiled.
"Morning sunshine," he said laughing. His eyes fluttered open and he just smiled.
I felt my heart flip-flop. "Well hey there cowboy." He sat up and then stretched. "You have very smelly breath."
"You're one to talk." He looked at me, put his arm around my neck and pulled me close to him. I leaned on his chest and he put his hands on my arms and he wouldn't let go. "Briana I love you."
For some reason, I was surprised at what he just told me. I mean, Ian has always been the one to tell me how much he loved me, but it was the way he said it that made me realize how much he loved me.
"I'll always love you." He smiled and rolled over, smothering me under his body weight.
"Tell me the truth about something. Please," he whispered into my ear.
"Anything," I mumbled back.
"Do you like Kaleb?" He leaned up from me and looked me in the eyes. "I'm not mad or anything, but we're supposed to tell one another everything."
I bit my lip and looked down. "I'm not sure yet." Ian sighed and rolled off of me and onto the other side of the bed.
He placed his hands in the back of his head and stared at the ceiling. "So if he were to ask you out today just out of nowhere, what would you say?"
"Do you really expect me to answer that?" I asked standing up.
"Uh huh. Hence why I asked you." I paced over to my dresser and picked out a shirt and then walked to my closet and picked out some jeans.
I spun around and looked at him. "I don't know Ian." I sighed and looked down. "I'm not sure what I feel at this moment. I'm stressed about everything. I don't have time to feel."
Ian looked over at me and smiled. "This is why I love you so much." I frowned as he stood up and walked toward my bathroom. "Don't mind if I use the potty first now, do you?"
"Go ahead. I was about to go downstairs and eat breakfast anyway."
I walked downstairs and in the kitchen to hear Eric, Lucas and Liam discussing something. I walked over to Eric, kissed his cheek and then strode back to the fridge.
"Admit it," Liam said. "There are about four other nominees in the same category that Briana is in. She has a 20% chance of winning."
"Well she's probably weighing her options," Lucas said. I looked in on the conversation once I knew that it was me that they were discussing.
"She's staying uplifted."
"I'm praying about it. If it's in His will that I win, then so be it." I picked out the milk and set it on the counter. "But I'm hopeful that I'll win. I still haven't seen the other people that are in the same category that I'm in." I leaned up on the counter, grabbed the Cinnamon Toast and then started making my cereal.
"Still," Eric chimed in. "No one can get as many viewers as she can. I watched it last night, by the way, and she got over 150,000. That's just amazing."
"That might be amazing, but everyone else might have more," Lucas said. "One person might have 250,000 viewers. Others might have 1 million. You never know."
"No, you're dwindling my hopes," I said sitting the milk back in the fridge and jumping on the counter to eat my cereal.
"I'm not trying to," he said. "I'm just trying to be realistic here." He looked at all three of us.
I sighed and looked at everyone's faces as they looked back at mine. I shrugged. "I have faith that I'll win and if I don't then it's a great opportunity and I always have next year to look forward to. I mean, they must have gone through hundreds and hundreds of entries, right? And they ended up picking me and four others. Hey, if that isn't a win then I don't know what is."
Eric smiled at me. "See. Nothing is going to take this happiness away from you are they?"
The day trudged on joyously. I packed all the essentials that I needed, I went over the rooms without everyone and they found them to their liking and then at the end of the day I took me a nice long hot bath that I had been needing for a while. As I stepped out of the shower, I put a towel around my body and then walked into my room.
Before I even started to strip, I noticed that my bedroom window was open and that Kaleb was sitting there watching me. I sighed, walked over to the window and looked through.
"Hey there pervert. Were you trying to watch me get naked?" I said.
He smiled at me. "Hey, I wasn't the one who left your windows open."
"But you were going to look in on me?"
He smiled. "No. I actually had to tell you something."
"Can you wait until I'm dressed. I feel awkward talking to you and I know that I have on no clothing under this towel."
"This'll only take a second." He sighed and looked at me, sternly. There wasn't any kind of emotion on his face. He was thinking, but about what? "What is with you Briana?"
"What do you mean what is with me? I haven't really done anything. You told me you had to talk to me and I'm here."
"I'm just confused," said looking at me. "I know you're probably done hearing me telling you this, but I'm confused. Do you like me or what? Cause you send the most devastating signals and I'm getting tired of it."
"Excuse me? I haven't sent you any kind of signals. If anyone is sending signals then it's your ass?."
"See," he said. "I don't ever send signals. I've already told you straight up how I feel. You're just procrastinating on telling me how you really feel."
"You've told me nothing."
"Isn't it obvious? Do I really have to spell it out for you Briana?" I bit my lip. "I like you. Is it that hard to comprehend?" I looked down and then sighed. "So are you gonna tell me something? Anything?" I couldn't say anything. My mouth went hoarse. "Well I have my answer. I guess we'll see what this trip has to bring." And with that, he stood, closed his window and disappeared out of sight.
I looked down because I knew that this trip was going to bring more drama then I intentionally thought.
Rhyia - LOL. Why do you have to read it on your phone? D: Omg. I love them too cause they're like amazing and they don't care. I support gay marriage all the way too cause if they're in love then so what?
Purple - Woo-Hoo!
Suja V - I don't know if you noticed, but you posted the comment twice. There must be some kind of glitch or something. Any who lolol, I do care for you guys like a whole bunch and like talking to you all have gotten me so much closer to like a different reality. I love you guys. You are all my distant friends and I love to see comments cause I know that you all care about what I put and you give me criticism. I love you all. Omg. Briana and Kaleb have a secret flame that you all have picked up on, but you can tell she's scared. Omg. Thanks for reading the other story. I just don't know where to go with it though. Lololol. I love you.
Maureen - Of course something is going to go wrong. Something always goes wrong. (: Not everything can stay perfectly intact, right? You like read my mind all the time Maureen. I was going to make Delilah start liking one of them, but its out of Kaleb and Ian and Lucas and Liam. I wish I had an older brother. My brother is younger than I and he's just a bad sport. My older sister is pregnant so its like hectic in the house. I have a guy best friend, but we're not as close as like Ian and Briana. Thank you so much.
L - Aww. Thank you. You have made my whole day.