Chapter 37: Problems, No Solutions
I went through my first couple of class periods just fine, which I had her in just the first one so it was amazing. Lunch was the only part of the day that seemed to keep me sane and I got to spend it with Alexander. We discussed my Lisa problems.
"She doesn’t hate you Briana," Alexander said with a smirk evident on his lips. "You’re just overreacting a bit."
"Oh right," I muttered. "She doesn’t hate me. She just called me a whore this morning and a slut last night." I glared at him. "But I’m so sorry because I’m just overreacting."
Alexander threw his arm over my shoulder and pulled me closer to him. "She’s just a hard one. She’s had a hard life and she takes it out on everyone else. Her family means the world to her."
"Yes, I get that," I said sighing. "But I’m not going to harm your family. There’s no way in hell that I could. I love you guys too much."
"Right. You’re totally right." He removed his arm and walked forward. "She…" He let the word just kind of hang in the air as if he didn’t think I heard him.
I came beside him and looked at him. "She what?" I asked him. He crossed his arms and bit his lip. I raised an eyebrow. "She what Alexander?"
He looked over at me and then forward. "Nothing Briana just drop it." There was a look on his face that I had never seen. Part of me wanted to get more information out of him, but the other half knew that he was hiding something from me for a reason so I just let it go.
The day went on just smoothly as it went. I only seemed to have Lisa in first period as I had with Alexander. Fifth period came and I’m still not sure why I hesitated as I did to walk in. Mainly, I guess because two boys who love me dearly had this class and that is still taking me time to get used to. Other reason is that Lisa just might have this class as well and ruin it for me just like I’m sure she might ruin every other class that I could have.
I gained up every ounce of courage that I had and pushed the door to the Art room open and I saw that it was just as regular as it had been. Ian and Kaleb were there chatting away, Mr. Martin was preparing the class as he wrote some notes on the board and as I looked around more, I saw no sign of Lisa and I let out a large sigh of relief.
I took my seat and smiled in my peace. When I opened my eyes, Ian and Kaleb were observing me. "You good there?" Kaleb asked.
"More than great now that I know the she-devil isn’t in my class."
Kaleb looked at Ian for help. "She means your cousin."
Kaleb looked back at me and raised an eyebrow. I shrugged and faced forward. The bell had rung and Mr. Martin hated to be interrupted.
School ended and I couldn’t be more pleased. Lisa and I only had first period together and I didn’t know who I should thank for that, but I was happy. Kaleb decided to take me home and Alexander was going to hang out with Lisa and Liz. It would get her off my back and onto Liz’s.
I walked out to the parking lot, looking for Kaleb’s car when I spotted something else that caught my attention in a way that I didn’t want it to.
And he was with another girl.
And I still didn’t know why I was so upset.
No. I wasn’t upset that he was with a girl. That wasn’t the problem at all. The problem is that it was with Chelsie Reynolds. They were leaning against her car. She laughed and swung her blonde hair and looked at Ian. Then she put her arms around Ian’s neck, leaned up some and kissed him. He kissed her back. He placed his hands on her hips and kissed her back.
And I know I shouldn’t be upset, but I was pissed off. I can’t believe that he kept this from me.
"Hey, I said my car was open." Kaleb appeared beside me. I tried to remove my eyes from Ian and Chelsie as fast as I could, but I was slow. Kaleb looked in the direction that I was staring at and clenched his jaw. "C’mon. Let’s go get something to eat."
I nodded and followed him as he walked off to his car. We got in and I sat my bag down and sighed. Then I faced forward. He put the keys into the ignition, but didn’t turn it. He turned and looked at me.
"Please tell me," he muttered, his hands still on the keys. "That you weren’t mad he was kissing that girl."
"No." I looked at him. "Well, yeah, but not because he was kissing her, but because of the actual girl he was kissing." I shrugged. "’He knew she hated me last year because of me making web shows, but he still talked to her and now is hiding their relationship from me."
"I already know what you’re gonna say." I looked at him. "I’m sorry. I shouldn’t be, but that’s my best friend and we tell each other everything."
"You know why he hid this from you." I sighed. "It was the same reason that you hid me from him at the beginning. So let him tell you this when he can approach you about it. You don’t want to cause a scene."
"You’re right," I mumbled. "As usual." He chuckled some, put his keys into the ignition and drove out of the parking lot. We drove in all quiet until Kaleb turned on the radio. A song that I had never heard. The beat was slow at first and then upbeat and melodious. "What is this?"
He looked at me briefly and then back at the road. "It’s called Sleeping Sickness by City of Color. Alexander got me into them last year."
"I like it." I smiled some. "I never pegged you for the type of person to listen to this music."
"There’s much that you don’t know about me yet spider monkey." I rolled my eyes at him as we approached my house. I raised an eyebrow and looked at him.
"I thought that you were wanting to go to get food," I said as he cut his car off.
"I forgot there was someone here to see you." I raised an eyebrow as he got out of the car. I followed in suit.
He walked up to my house, opened the door and I walked in after him. "Who am I-" I was cut off by Eric sitting at the kitchen counter with a cup of coffee in his hands. If I were someone different, I would have not been able to recognize him. He changed his hair again and it was back to its natural black color and he didn’t have a 5 o’clock shadow. "Eric?"
He sat his cup down and looked at me. There was something in his eyes that I couldn’t find, but he covered it up so well. "Baby sister." He came towards me and hugged me tight and I hugged him back. "I’ll be saying baby brother pretty soon as well."
I looked at him and smiled. "For the first time," I said with a smile coming upon my face. "I will be too." Eric laughed at me. "There will finally be someone here who will be younger than I." I looked at Kaleb and wiggled my eyebrows. He and Eric burst into laughter.
I dropped my bag at the door and so did Kaleb as I sat down at the table with Eric. "I'm making mac and cheese," Kaleb said. "You want some?" He asked looking at me.
"How romantic," Eric said batting his eyelashes some. "I would love some darling."
Kaleb smiled as he got pots out of my cabinet and went to work. I turned and looked at Eric. "When did you get here?"
"While you guys were at school." He took another sip of his coffee and stared off into the distance. Something was wrong. Something was terribly wrong. He looked at me. "Lucas and Liam came and got me at their lunch break." I couldn't stop staring at him. He raised an eyebrow. "Briana, will you stop staring at me like that.
"What's wrong?" I blurted out.
He raised an eyebrow and sat his coffee mug down. "'What do you mean?" He asked ever so slightly.
"You know what I mean. I can always tell when there's something wrong with you and there is definitely something wrong with you now."
"Briana." He chuckled some and picked his coffee mug back up and sipped his coffee. "Quit your worrying. There's nothing wrong with me."
"Right. There's nothing wrong with you. I believe that since you're drinking coffee in the middle of the day." He eyed me. "And you hate coffee."
Kaleb slightly turned some and looked at Eric. Eric sighed and sat his coffee mug back down. "I can leave if it's private."
"No, you stay." Eric looked at me. "I have to go somewhere anyway." And he stood, grabbed the keys to my mother's car off the hook and walked out the door. It closed slightly and I sighed.
"I don't think I never know when to stop worrying," I muttered putting my head down on the table. I heard Kaleb laugh. He came up behind me and put his hands on my shoulders.
"That's what I love the most about you," he muttered. He worked his hands on my shoulders and I sighed. "And you're very very tense my dear."
"I've got a lot to be tense about if you haven't noticed. My mother is giving birth in t-minus two days, your cousin is breathing down my back, Ian's hiding a very tiny secret from me and now so is my brother. I don't know how much more I can take."
"Maybe you shouldn't take it at all." I leaned up and looked at him. "I think you need to relax. You're taking so much on your shoulders at one time and some of it you don't have to take."
"Then who would I be if I didn't worry about everyone?" I stood and paced. "I just..." I ran a hand through my hair. "I honestly feel like there is so much going on, but there's nothing going on at all."
"There are things going on, but you shouldn't worry your pretty little head." He came over to me and placed his hands on my arms. "Your mother is going to have a perfectly healthy baby. You went to one of her sonograms. The doctors said the baby was healthy and your dad is there with her right now. Ian and your brother will tell you whatever they need to tell you when they are ready. Don't force it and don't worry about it. I don't think that anything is harming them. And Lisa.." I smirked and he smiled. "She's a different story."
We both let out laughter. "Don't you think that I know that part?" He pulled me into the circle of his arms and I laid my head on his chest. "What would I do without you?"
"The same that I would do if I didn't have you." He buried his head into my shoulder and started sniffing me. "You smell weird."
I looked at him and he smiled. I rolled my eyes. "I'll eat my mac and cheese and take a shower.
"I have cancer," Eric said to me. I looked at him and then around to look at Liz and Liam. They both nodded, but didn't respond.
"You kept this secret from us?" I nearly screamed to his face. Liam put a hand on my shoulder and I turned to look at him. He shook his head and I raised an eyebrow. "What is your problem? He has cancer."
"What is it with you?" Liz asked looking at me. "You make it seem like its his problem he has it. He can't help it. Goodness Briana you are so good at making everything about yourself!"
I raised an eyebrow and looked at her. "I do not make everything about myself!"
"You made it Ian's fault that he was dating Chelsie Reynolds and you basically told him that he couldn't date her because you didn't like her, you make it seem like Lisa is out to get you and you are still wanting to be in a love triangle. You're a narcissistic bitch."
"She's right." I looked up as Kaleb and Ian walked in. Kaleb shook his head. "You can't have everything and you can't make it all about you. Do you ever ask us how we feel?"
"Do you even put others before yourself?" Ian asked. "Oh wait, don't answer. I've been your best friend for a while. So I know how you are. There isn't a nice bone in your body."
"No," I responded. "You're wrong." All their voices came at me at one time, spitting out insults and shunning me for the person that I was and will always be. "STOP! YOU'RE WRONG!"
I opened my eyes and looked up and all around me.
I had dream.
But it seemed so freaking real.
I looked at the clock and sighed. 3:26 am. I pushed the covers over me and stood out of bed. The sweater that I wore to bed was long and fell over my hands and fell down to my knees. It was Kaleb’s and it smelled just like him. And that thought alone made me forget about my total nightmare and made me smile. I walked out of my room and down towards the stairs landing and that’s when I heard a voice and I knew who it was immediately.
"There’s no way that I can tell them." I looked over the edge of the stair landing and saw Eric pacing back and forth. "There’s no way." He paused and wiped his hand over the back of his neck. "They would be totally devastated. I cannot do that to my family." Another pause. "You don’t understand!" Then he hung up the phone and sighed loudly. He ran his hands through his hair and groaned.
I stood up and walked back into my room.
What was Eric hiding and why would he hide it from out family?
Zelia: Thank you so much! Sorry it took forever for me to write.
L: Excites me cause I'm back to stay. Sorry it took so long!
Sorry there is so much time and space in between my story, but that's only cause I was not on a stable computer. But I'm back forever now. And 'Being Beautiful' is not over just yet.