Chapter 33: Happy New Year
Sitting back in Liam's car, I sighed and looked down. Ian was in love with me and I was in desperate attraction to him, I can't deny that, but I liked Kaleb, and I didn't want that to be taken away. I either ruined a friendship of many years to be with someone who just came into my life or I stayed with Ian all of my life and leave Kaleb hanging. I couldn't do both of those. At this moment, I knew which friendship I'd save in a heartbeat.
Liam, sensing the hesitation and silence, just plugged in his keys, started the ignition and drove back down to our street.
On arriving at home, we both got out and noticed the many of cars that were stationed around my parents' house and Alexander's as well. We started up the sidewalk, but I stopped, turning to look at Alexander and Kaleb's house. "Go ahead." I turned and saw Liam. "He called me about half an hour ago. I think he knows something."
Approaching Alexander's house, I placed two swift knocks on the door and it opened in a matter of seconds. Alexander appeared, all dressed up. "Don't you look fancy." I faked a smile.
"Yeah ... we're hosting a New Year's party." He turned, allowing me to see the inside and all the people that were scattered all around." He looked me up and down once he turned back towards me. "You didn't have to keep this secret from us Bri."
"How many people know?" I huffed out.
"Enough." I gulped and looked down. Alexander sighed and pulled me into the circle of his arm.
"I really thought I was done with crying and being sad, but I guess that God has a different plan for me."
"You can never think what you have planned for yourself, is any better than what God has planned for you."
"I know how true that is," I muttered. I pulled back from Alexander and looked at him. "But you know why I kept this secret, right? I just didn't want there to be as much drama as there is now."
"I always understand your reasoning ... for most things." I smiled at him. "Especially having to keep something secret. You remember why I came here, right? I tried keeping something secret that I knew would never work out being secret, and it didn't work out anyway."
"Please don't say that whatever Kaleb and I are will not work. I can't handle that right now."
"Darling," Alexander said placing his hands on my arms. "I'm not saying that. I'm saying that I kept it secret for so long that it ended up ruining me. Keeping you and Kaleb secret won't work out as much as you think. It's out in the open and that's the only good that it can do to you. Keeping things secret never works out in anyone's favor. I know this for a fact." I nodded as he stepped out of the way. "He's on the back porch drinking his tea. He should be pretty content."
I thanked Alexander, stepped through the door, and made my way through the big house, passed the people as I muttered my greetings, and to the back porch. Just like Alexander said, he was sitting with his legs crossed and a book placed in his lap with a cup of tea in his hand.
"You know, there's this great big party going on back inside the house to celebrate the coming of this glorious new year, but reading must suit you well." He looked up, startled at my presence. "Jennifer Donnelly was and probably still is my favorite author." He gulped a bit and smiled, "and Revolution is probably my favorite book of all time. Not gonna lie."
He stood up, placed his book and cup down, and then looked at me. We had a stare off for a while until he spoke. "Hey."
"Hey back," I said.
"Do you wanna ... take a seat?"
"I would." I took the seat right beside his and he sat back down in his chair. He picked his cup of tea up off the table and placed it in my direction, and I took it in my cold hands and just kept it there. The sensation of the warm tea cup buzzed through my fingers and then through my whole body. "How do you wanna start this?"
He shifted some in his seat, and when I looked up, he was looking forward, through the screening around his porch and out past the pool towards the wilderness. It was so beautiful. "Anyway, since we have to get through the whole thing."
I sighed and relayed him the whole story of how Ian found out since that was the part that always made me cringe. "So Liam took me to his house and we ... I mean I don't know if we made up. He just told me he loved me ... and he kissed me."
Kaleb stiffened a bit. "Did you kiss him back?"
"Yeah." I looked over at Kaleb and he was sitting in a stone cold position. "I would have felt bad if I didn't. That's the only thing I could have given him because I can't give him anything else." I looked back down. "He wanted me to choose between you and him." I felt Kaleb turn towards me. "I just couldn't. It's not that I don't value the many years that Ian has been my best friend, but I value your friendship as well and the way I feel about you."
Meeting Kaleb's gaze, I saw sadness in his eyes. It was a look I'd never thought I'd see from someone like him, and it literally hit me right in the heart. "I'm sorry for putting you in this situation of keeping us secret, but I know that it's you that I want to be with, but I can wait. I can always wait for you."
I looked down and sighed. "You shouldn't have to apologize for anything. It's all me and it always was me."
"If I had never made us private, you'd still have your best friend and I'd probably still have this perfect friendship."
"But we'd never have ... us. I don't think I could live without that."
Gently, he grabbed the tea cup out of my hand, placed it down beside him on the coffee table and took my hands in his, warming them up way more than the hot tea ever could. "I will always wait for you to be that us that you can't live without. Don't get me wrong, I can't live without it either, but I'd rather wait than ruin anything between any of us. I'll talk to Ian as well just to get all of this out in the open." He brought my fingers to his mouth and kissed them. "I know that you have some sort of feelings for Ian; I figured that as soon as I met you and him together in the same place. I can't deny that it does make me a bit jealous, but I knew what I was getting into when I got into it." He kissed my fingers again. "But I'd do anything to have you, and if that means wait a decade or two, I'd do it because you mean that much to me."
All I could do was stare at Kaleb and melt away in his deep green eyes that bore into my gray ones. "Thank you." He smiled at me. "Thank you for understanding what I mean ... and thank you for waiting for me, 'cause that's probably what I need is time and that's probably what Ian needs is time. And maybe you do too, only to see that I'm not worth waiting for."
"Just because you don't think that you're worth waiting for doesn't mean I don't think you are."
I couldn't help but smile again. "You're the best thing that has happened to me in a while." I didn't let him respond to what I had said, I just leaned down and pressed my lips to his and at that exact moment, all you could hear from inside his house was, "3, 2, 1! HAPPY NEW YEAR". And there was something in me that realized this year might be happy.
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