Dreams of Slenderness

Have you ever tried to lose weight? Were you unsuccessful? Better yet, did you feel that no matter how hard you worked, no matter how hard you tried, the weight continued to stay there? If so, this is for you.
I can hear my heart pounding,
Bleeding inside from memory downpour
Sweat covers my body like I'm drowning
Someday I shall conquer.

I've been judged all my life
Never been free to just be myself
A healthier me I have strived,
All I want is to maintain proper health.

Nobody gives a me second thought
They just see what lies in front
Their words have my confidence caught,
They say what appears to be me very blunt.

The words hit like a bullet flying in the air,
Clambering onto my soul tightly
How these words make me feel, people don't care
But I fight to change with power so mighty.

I have been this way since birth,
There's not much hope of changing it
My family said if I change, I'll be the first,
There's no hope but to forfeit.

But I cannot give up a fight, I've fought to win,
Someday I will be proud of who I am,
I know there's strength deep down within,
I've just have to keep on trying.

***Side Note about the Author***

I was always the chunky kid in school, weighing around 140 in the 4th grade. I grew up in a family where everyone was overweight, so eating a salad instead of a slice of pizza was unheard of. I got tired of hearing others thoughts of me, and of looking at myself in the mirror. I realized I was not proud of who I am, and I began the fight for what I could be. I am now a freshman in high school and 180 pounds, dropping by the day. Now this may seem like a lot, but I have gone down 4 sizes in jeans, and instead of scanning the racks for XL, I am slinking my body into a Medium. THAT is a great feeling. I am muscular, and have somewhat of a curve. I'm now considered average, not fat or chunky. The best part about losing weight is viewing your body and realizing it is you. That YOU are that skinny beautiful girl standing in the mirror smiling back at you.
Can you relate?
I am too skinny, I need to gain weight, but I can compare in ways.
Nope I'm perfect. Everyone adores me.
My boyfriend says I look just fine.
I am about average, and have always been.
I am a little overweight, but don't let it bother me.
I'm in the exact same position as you were and I really enjoyed your poem.
Great poem... I guess.
Published: 8/24/2011
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