"Benny, cheer up babe. Let's go out tonight!" Lisa smiles at me and it's all I have not to roll my eyes at her. She doesn't get that I'm a father and I need to grow up. Going out to some club isn't going to get me anywhere with Christina. After the park incident, I'd come home just to find Lisa sitting in my apartment. I wish she'd go back to Boston because after seeing Christina again, I know I'm still in love with her. It would be so much easier if she would give me another chance and give her, Charlie, and me a chance to be a family.
Thanks to my mother, I don't know if that's going to work. I knew, I shouldn't have listened to her, but she's my mom; what am I supposed to do? She could probably convince an Eskimo to buy ice...
"Lisa, I can't. We've been over this already." I groan, and move toward the kitchen where I left my phone. With Lisa following behind me with her arms crossed over her chest, I call Christina and wait for her to answer. She doesn't say anything right away, so I cut in and start, "Christina, please don't give up on me! I know I fucked up, just please let me have another ch-"
"Shut up and listen." I hear a male voice growl, probably Alex. "You have no right to have Charlie! You didn't want him when he was born, so how do we know you're going to want him if things get hard? Honestly, I don't know why Cristina even gave you a chance to meet Charlie. Knowing the prick that you are, I bet you'll just leave again without a word some day, why don't you make it easy? Leave now before Christina or Charlie get hurt." He hisses, and hangs up the phone before I can respond.
I carelessly let my phone drop to the counter and rest my elbows on the counter so I can rest my head on my hands. This is ridiculous! If I don’t spend time with Charlie, I’m wrong, and if I want to be with Charlie, I’m wrong! What the hell is the right thing to do? "Damn it Ben!" Lisa groans, "Why don’t you just take his fucking advice? Then we could just go back to Boston!" She shouts angrily, with a look of hate in her eyes. "I hate it here, and there’s no reason you can’t find another job in Boston!" She complains, before walking out of the kitchen.
I follow her to the bedroom and watch as she begins to throw her things in her suitcase. I haven’t unpacked everything yet, so it wouldn’t be too hard for me to just pick up and leave. Maybe Lisa does have a point. All I’m doing here is hurting Charlie and Christina, not to mention Christina and Alex’s relationship. Maybe the better thing to do is to do what Alex said and just get out now.
Looking up from Charlie’s sleeping body, I see Alex leaning against the doorframe to Charlie’s room, watching me as I watch Charlie. Alex has truly been great today, I’m not sure I could’ve made it without him. Charlie and I talked about what happened today for a good hour; I tried to make him understand that his dad didn’t really want him to leave me, but Ben just wanted some time with Charlie too. The Alex, Charlie, and I watched a few movies before Charlie finally fell asleep on the couch.
Standing up from the small bed, I make my way to the door and press my hands against Alex’s chest. "Thank you so much for today." I whisper and our eyes connect for a moment. "It means a lot to me that you were here for Charlie and me today, I’m not sure what I would’ve done without you." I add, before wrapping my arms around his neck and hugging him softly.
"It’s not problem. I love being here for you and Charlie, and I always will be here for the two of you." He smiles softly so my heart melts. Alex is honestly the best man I have ever met. He’s so different from anyone else I’ve been with (Ben) and it’s refreshing to have a guy who protects me, and my son. I love him.
I really do, and I want to spend the rest of my life with this man. I know he’ll be a great dad, not only to Charlie, but to our kids if we have any, and I know Alex will never walk out. I also know that how I feel about Alex is ten million times stronger than I felt about Ben. Ben and I had a puppy love that I’m pretty sure only kept us interested because we weren’t supposed to be together. His parents hated me, so that made our relationship some sort of game. With Alex, neither of our parents are in the picture, but he assured me that his parents would have loved me.
Glancing up into his eyes again, I whisper, "I love you, Alex. So much. I don’t know how I was lucky enough to find you, but I was, and I never want to let you go. Let’s get married soon. It’s not like either of us have families to invite, so let’s just have a quick small scale wedding. I want to be committed to you for the rest of my life." I finish, and Alex has a huge smile on his face.
"Are you sure?" He asks, so I nod back up at him. "Then let’s do it. I love you Christina, that’s honestly all that matters to me right now. I will go to any lengths to make you and Charlie happy." He smiles before pressing a gently but passionate kiss to my lips. With this one kiss, I feel like I’m on fire. With Alex’s lips against mine I can’t seem to think straight, or pay attention to anything around us. It’s just me and Alex. Perfect.
It's Just Too Late - Chapter 15Will Ben Leave again?
By Kylee Marie