It's Royally Complicated - Chapter 20

Matthew had a way with people. He understood, comforted, and went out of his way to make them feel comfortable and safe around him... Matthew was just perfect... so why couldn't I fall for him?
(P.S.: The picture is what I think Ethan looks like.)

**Chanelle's POV**

"I'd like to present Egbert, Shelly, and Yolko."
I laughed again and took another popcorn piece out of the bowl in my arms and put it into my mouth. My head was rested on Matthew's warm shoulder with a blanket around us as we sat in the cinema watching Ice Age Dawn of the Dinosaurs, my all-time favorite movie. I knew coming to Matthew had been the best possible idea, he always knew exactly what to do to cheer me up. He laughed and looked at me. "Have you honestly memorized these lines?" He asked. I pulled up my shoulders. "It's funny!" I said, chewing and smiling at him. He smirked and looked back at the flickering screen. "So how's my baby doing?" I asked, relaxing again. "He's fine. What are you going to call him?" Matthew asked. I pulled up my shoulders and took another popcorn piece, then laughed at the movie again. "Uh, Sid?" I asked, giggling as the hilarious sloth tried collecting milk for the three little dinosaurs. Matthew turned to look at me. I raised my eyes to him. His eyebrows were lifted with sarcasm. "You're serious?" He asked. I rolled my eyes. "Okay, fine, do you want me to call him Egbert?" I asked teasingly. Matthew laughed. "Okay, fine, Sid it is. I just assumed if it had to be an Ice Age character; why not something less degrading like Diego or Buck, they're awesome," he said. I laughed again. "Yeah, but Sid is my favorite. If I name my horse after Diego or Buck, it will be degrading because he's not named after my favorite, so there..." I said and stuck my tongue out at Matthew and he laughed.

"You can be such a child sometimes, Chanelle," he said. I looked back at the screen. "I know, but that's why you love me." The moment the words escaped my mouth, an awkward atmosphere fell between us. Damn it, Chanelle! I had never really thought of Matthew having feelings for me. I mean, I had wondered what it would be like, to date him, but who wouldn't? Not only was Matthew a Prince, he was freaking hot! And he was a gentleman, what girl wouldn't want to date him, but if you're friends with someone for as long as Matthew and I were, and if you have that kind of friendship where everything becomes so sibling-like and comfortable, dating just seems impossible. I loved Matthew like a brother. He was my best friend. I couldn't say that enough and that kiss messed me up more than I wanted to admit. I mean, I wanted to kiss him but at the same time it just didn't feel right.

The movie flickered before my eyes, but my mind was far away. My life was too messed up right now. I could deal with that kiss after the dust had settled from my parents' divorce. I took a deep breath. Their divorce. This was going to change my whole life, my whole routine, possibly even my home and everything I was used to. I might have to move depending on what my parents decide. I froze at that thought. I didn't want to leave. Everything I loved was right here and what about Sid (haha, I'm so naming Autumn's baby that)? What about Rose, Rosie, Mark, and Matthew, and all my other friends... oh, but mostly Matthew. I wouldn't be able to cope without him comforting me like he always did. In Matthew's company, everything was so easy; he made me feel like I didn't have a care in the world. He understood me, there were times that I've wondered if he could read my mind, if he could process thoughts I haven't even thought of yet, but I knew that was just me being silly. Matthew had a way with people. He understood and comforted, and went out of his way to make them feel comfortable and safe around him... Matthew was just perfect... so why couldn't I fall for him?


**Mark's POV**

"You actually like them?" I frowned deeply and then brightened again when Aquamarine laughed. "What's wrong with One Direction?" She asked as she scanned through the row of CD albums on the shelf in the game room. She had her back to me but I could tell she was smiling. I shook my head. "I'm just not into them. Typical girl crap." I said. She looked at me over her shoulder and her smile sent my heart into overdrive. I don't think I've ever seen a girl more beautiful than her in my life. "Yet, you own a Justin Bieber album?" She asked and pulled out a CD without breaking eye contact with me. I instantly started blushing. "Nothing girly about that," she said with a cheeky grin. "That's not mine," I said immediately. "Sure it's not, Mark," she said and turned her attention back to the CDs. "I'm serious!" I said and stood up from the beanbag. In two long strides I was standing behind her. "Oh, yeah?" She asked and turned to face me. She was a tiny bit shorter than me, even in heels. That's when I realized I was way too close. I took a step back. "Then who's is it?" She asked, her eyes playful. I reached past her head and took the Justin Bieber CD out of the collection, then opened it.

"Rosie's!" I said and showed her the autograph and the words "For the incredible Princess" above it. Aqua took it out of my hands and read it. An amused grin spread over her face. She looked up at me and the amusement spread toward her eyes then she started laughing. "Wow," she said and closed the CD then ran a finger gently over my cheek, making my skin tingle where she had touched it. "It's nice to know the Prince can also blush," she said smiling then turned to put the CD back. I chuckled since there was nothing I could do about the fading redness in my face. Her eyes suddenly lit up. "Oh, my word! I haven't heard this in years!" She said and took out a CD, but turned so fast that I couldn't see what she had in her hands. She busied herself with the stereo and a few seconds later "Let it burn" by Usher started blaring through the speakers.

I almost laughed when she turned around again. I shook my head. "I think I was about fourteen, last I've listened to this," I said. Her eyes widened a little. "Same here," she said and took my hand to pull me toward her. "Come on," she said and looked up into my eyes. "I'm assuming his highness knows how to slow dance," she said. I smiled. She was such a tormentor, yet she had a way of making it the most adorable thing ever. I put my hands at her waist and hers locked behind my neck. Her eyes seemed to have a hold on me as soon as I held her closely. She smiled sweetly at me, all the cockiness, all the smug smiles, all the sarcasm and surprisingly all the playfulness disappeared slowly as we moved to the music. Her smile was gentle and, along with her sweet scent, was driving me crazy. Before I knew it, she was somehow on her toes, closing the gap between our faces and brushing my lips with her full, soft ones. I felt dizzy in an instant as I began kissing her back.


**Rosemarie's POV**

"I'm sorry I cried earlier," I said as Ethan walked me home later. I played with the cute bracelet around my arm. Madison had made it for me. It was a plain silver chain with little bows in different colors and fabrics that she had tied around it. Ethan's arm looped around my waist. The rain had gotten a bit lighter but the umbrella still shielded us from it, this time Ethan was holding it though. Ethan kissed the top of my head as we walked. I closed my eyes. He had been doing that a lot lately, kissing the top of my head, and always so attentively, like he was scared I'd stop him. He suddenly seemed really distant as well. After I greeted his family, he just became quiet. I was scared I had done something wrong. I sighed and closed my eyes. "Ethan," I started. "Hmm," he answered dreamily. "What's bothering you?" I asked. His arm around me tensed the slightest bit. "It feels like I'm losing," he said after a while. Something sunk in me; dread. My heartbeat suddenly felt heavier, painful against my chest. "What do you mean?" I asked and looked up at him, breathing difficultly.

Ethan suddenly stopped and I turned to look at him. He reached for my chin and turned my face toward him. He leaned in swiftly and touched his lips with mine. I melted with a shudder. His kiss was slow and deep... and painful. I felt the hurt in him. He broke the kiss and put his forehead to mine. His eyes were low. "How long do you think we're going to be able to keep this up, Rosemarie?" He asked. I flinched and went cold. I sighed and dropped my eyes as well. "I don't know... I hate keeping this a secret as much as you do but..." I shook my head and raised my eyes to his. "It's forbidden," I said. Ethan sighed and his arm dropped from my face. I felt cold as I watched him. He took a step back. "Because I don't think I can do this anymore."

My heart dropped to the ground and shattered. I struggled to get a breath. "What?" I asked. Ethan looked at me forlornly. "I can't do this anymore. I can't keep on living with this secret and this relationship that will never work out. I..." He looked away. "I fought this at the beginning because I knew you are too good for me but..." He shook his head then looked directly at me. I knew this was difficult for him to say. "I am dangerously close to falling in love with you." I let out a surprised gasp and felt my eyes sting, and my vision blur at his words. "And that can't happen. I can't fall in love with someone if I know it won't ever work, that it can't ever be official," he said. My lips started trembling and my hands balled up into fists at my side. A lump in my throat made things just so much harder. "Ethan, I..." Hot tears escaped my eyes and I never felt as desperate for his touch as I did then. I raked my brain for something to say, to fix all this but it was hopeless. I pulled up my shoulders and shook my head, tears were blurring him from my vision. "I don't know what to tell you. I want to be with you. I..." I was completely lost. There was nothing I could say to make this better. "I think it would be better for both of us if we just end this... whatever this is," he said.


Hello Everyone,

I'm sorry I didn't reply to the comments of Chapter 19. I posted this chapter on the day the Nineteenth Chapter came online and suddenly got hit by inspiration! I was having trouble with the ending but it's all good. I hope to be posting a lot faster from here on out because I already have the ending in mind, I just need to get it written. Promise to reply to both chapters in the 21st chapter.

Chocolate kisses and candy dreams for all of you, my dear readers.
Published: 7/8/2013
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