New Girl - Chapter Sixteen

Alexis has to face the decision she's made. Will she let Dimitri in or will she keep her heart guarded in order to protect him?
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Chapter Sixteen

Today I had to face him, I had to decide whether I wanted to tell him about my attack or if I wanted to stick to this story. I knew, I would be hurting him if I lied, but I knew, I would also be protecting him. It sucks having decisions like this to make, I couldn’t keep thinking about it. I quickly laced up my white converse chucks and looked at reflection, today my hair was in a ponytail letting the little waves of my hair consume my back. I tugged down on my denim shorts, they looked in some ways a little too short, I wore a plain white singlet to go with it. Relax, today was a really warm day, I wouldn’t be crazy enough to wear this in freezing conditions.

I grabbed my books and walked to my Jeep, the drive to school seemed longer than usual. It probably had something to do with me missing all the shortcuts to school, I knew, I was prolonging going to school. I had a decision to make, but I didn’t think I could bring myself to do it. Knowing Rebecca would be at school made me happier, I missed her. I drove into school and parked my car closest to the nearest exit in case, I needed a quick getaway.

I was welcomed first my Mike who crushed me in his arms, "I missed you baby," I said trying to kiss my cheek, but I instead went for a hug. He must’ve not realized I was trying to avoid the kiss because just smiled and placed his arms over my shoulder.

"You’ve been away for a while, where were you?" He asked curiously as he waved to his friends walking off into the cafeteria. He looked down at me waiting for a response. I shrugged off his arm and now stood facing him, "Family came to visit me, so I stayed school."

He was about to speak when I interrupted, "Mike wait, we need to talk," I said looking down and taking in his hand into mines, "You’ve been a really good friend to me these past few weeks, you were technically my first friend."

We both laughed, "It’s just you’re a great friend Mike and I mean JUST a great friend." I tried making emphasis on the words, I assumed he caught on because his facial expression changed into something, I wasn’t used to seeing on Mike, anger and pain.

"Are you breaking up with me?" He whispered voice sounding defeated. He took a step back and stared at me dead in the eyes.

"In a sense I guess 'yes', but it’s not because of you."
He cut me off and spoke, "Oh don’t give me that, it’s me, bullshit."

Before I could continue speaking, he rushed right past me, bumping me in the shoulder making all my books fall. I watched him walk into the cafeteria without even looking back at me, I felt bad, it wasn’t my intention to hurt him. I mean, it would’ve been unfair to me to be with him if I didn’t even like him in that way.

I turned around to see Rebecca holding all my books. "Here," she passed me my books, "I saw what happened, are you okay?"

We started walking now. "Yeah, I’m fine, I just feel really bad," I said as I opened the door leading to the cafeteria.
"It’s not your fault Lexie, you can’t force your feelings on someone," she rubbed my back and we kept walking.

I walked into Gym while Rebecca left me to go history. I entered the gym already notifying Mrs. Campbell, I wouldn’t be participating today. I handed her a forged document saying I wasn’t fit for whatever activity we were doing today, so she ushered me to the grandstand, where Dimitri was obviously sitting.

Great I thought. Almost the whole lesson went by without the both of us saying a word to each other or even him acknowledging my presence.

"Dimitri," I whispered, he looked up from reading his book, he didn’t say anything he just looked at me. I tried to read his face, but it was stone cold, there was nothing I could read other than the obvious he was pissed. "Can we talk?" I asked moving closer, so that no one would hear. He placed his book down and rested his elbows on his thighs with his fists clasped, "Talk."

So I started speaking, "I know you're mad at me, but I don’t understand why you're mad exactly." I took a deep breath, "I mean like this has nothing to do with you, why is it so important for you to know?" I wasn’t looking at him, but at the floor.

I was being a coward and I knew it, I heard him take a long deep breath before he finally spoke, "Do you honestly think, I don’t care about you? Do you think I just open up my house to anyone? Alexis, I care about you more than..." he cut himself off and sighed, "look I can’t explain exactly how I feel about you, but I know that I do care about you... as friend." He said the last part quietly, like he didn’t want even himself to hear it. It hurt hearing the word "friend" come out of his mouth, but I knew this was the only way it could be.

He couldn’t exist in my world, he would get hurt and that would mean, I would get hurt. I nodded my head and gathered my things. I don’t know why I felt like I needed to leave, so I scurried to stand. My hand was caught by something, I looked back at Dimitri and his hand was holding mines, "Don’t go please," he whispered defeated. "Just stay for a minute," he pulled me back, so I was back to sitting next to him.

I squeezed his hands to reassure him I wasn’t going anywhere. "I know you’re not going to tell me about what happened." He said letting go of my hand, "but I want to enjoy your company before this lesson ends because I don’t know if I can handle being lied to Alexis, I’m sorry."

His words were too determined and hard like he was saying goodbye without exactly saying goodbye. I didn’t want to end our friendship or conversation even after this lesson ends, but I knew it was the right thing to do, so I smiled even though it felt like I was breaking my jaw to force it on. I masked the pain in my heart by laughing anything he’d say. I blinked as much as I could to keep the traitorous tears away.


Author's Note

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Published: 1/14/2014
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