The Last Cell - Part 2

Chase reflects back to her early years, as her depressing life is told.
May 28th, 2012

I am ugly, I have no hair. I'm as bald as a bald person could be! I have to wear a wig when I rarely ever go into public. I can't stand the stares and pointing. Maybe it's because I don't like being the center of attention, and the fact that I hate sympathy!! That's why I have a hard time believing my family could actually love me, or if it's just sympathy pouring out of their hearts.

When I was hospitalized 6 times when I was 3, I basically started to slowly tear my family apart. I could not stand the fighting! We were broken, and had no money, all because of me. I feel like sometimes my whole family wishes I would just die already, so they can just move on, and not have a little piece of dust bothering everyone. I would be the one who got those hateful stares from my brothers when they only got one Christmas present. Sometimes I wish I'd just die already...


May 31st, 2012

I had missed so much school by the age of 4, so my parents decided to withdrawal me from school, and start homeschooling me. Now, of course I was perfectly healthy for the next 2 years, two years that I could have spent at a normal school. My cancer hadn't come back... yet! I could run freely outside and I felt normal. I grew all my hair back, and I could actually look at myself without thinking I was disgusting. I could smile. Even if I don't accomplish anything throughout my life, I have been given the best gift possible. Life!

~My next diary entries come from when I was 7 years old~


August 21st, 2007

Andy and Avery are having their 9th birthday party today. I don't think Avery likes how I moved into his room with him. He has a bathroom, and he would be in the room if anything were to happen to me. I consider Avery my best friend. He is always nice to me unlike Andy, who is never nice to anyone. I have been sick-free for a while now. I'm kind of nervous though because I'm starting to feel bad again. I'm not going to tell anyone though, because this is their day. I'm not going to wreck it for them like I wreck everything else.
How do you like it?
So good, continue writing asap.
I didn't really like it.
Very touching and good.
It makes me think of people who are struggling.
I hated it.
Published: 2/2/2013
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